Hello my brave boy, mummy has not been on the internet for quite a few weeks & i missed your second anniversary on here, but i promise you i thought about you all that day and as i do every day..Your brother is very much like you now, he's 16 weeks and 1 day today, i feel scared Christopher at the minute but i know you will look down on him & give him all your love..sometimes Gabriel looks up at the lampshade in the living room & starts smiling, im sure he can see you at times, i hope he does, i wish i could, even if it was just for a minute, it would be something, i just want another chance to kiss and cuddle you, i miss you too much, the pain never eases, i just put on a very brave face, but im breaking inside, i just dont know how iv got so far without you, having your brother is amazing, i just dont know how me & daddy have got here with him..i love you Christopher Gabriel so very much and until we meet again i will carry on loving & thinking of you every day..goodnight my precious son x x x big big kisses to heaven & back, love your devoted mummy x x x x x x x x x x x x